1. |
flaw
03:09
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And I have lost myself within you
I have lost myself while fighting for you
Maybe I wonāt survive this because I want to
But Iāll survive this because I have to
Iām learning to be content in loneliness
Iām learning to be okay with not being okay
I never knew what to believe in
Because why would I god make
Part of me be so wrong?
Now all of the flaws you use to love
Are things that Iāve done wrong
Iām learning
Iām learning
Iām learning to be okay with not being okay
Iām learning
Iām learning
Iām learning to be content in loneliness
Iām learning to be okay with not being okay
I never knew what to believe in because
Why would a god make part of me be so wrong?
Now all of the flaws you use to love
Are things thatāve done wrong
Now all of the flaws you use to love
Are things that Iāve done wrong
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2. |
waste of time
03:31
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Sticks and stones are known to broke your bones
But you were the one to break me
So I sat inside my car
Until the gas light went on
Until I couldnāt breath anymore
So iāll take
131 to m6
And youāll tell me
None of this makes sense
So donāt tell me what to do
Just tell me what the fuck to do
Am I a just distraction or a burden to you
Am I a waste of time
Am I something you look forward to
Am I a waste of time
Maybe one day I'll catch my breath
When I finally feel okay
But as of now
I'll never be okay
I never smoked a cigarette
But tell me what is it like to have something touch your lips?
So tell me what I am to you
Am I a just distraction or a burden to you
Am I a waste of time
Am I something you look forward to
Am I a waste of time
To you
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3. |
love yourself
02:53
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I wanna be better
I wanna be social
I want to like my self again
I want to breathe again
I want to be able to be myself again
But I hate myself again
How am I suppose to be better
When I canāt better myself?
They say you canāt love someone
Until you love yourself
But Iāve been loving you for 4 fuckin years
And Iāve been hating myself for many more
I'm scared to get close again
Because you fucked with my head
All I need is a friend
Just someone there for me
To tell me
That this wonāt end
How am I suppose to be better
When I canāt better myself?
They say you canāt love someone
Until you love yourself
But Iāve been loving you for 4 fuckin years
And Iāve been hating myself for many more
I wish you were proud of me,
Because I do try my best.
I promise
I am making progress.
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4. |
uncomfortable
02:43
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And I haven't slept in weeks
Maybe it's this shitty mattress
Or Maybe it's these thin walls
I cut my hair off again
Which I'll probably regret it
Nobody seems to know my name
So maybe I am nothing
special
Lately everyone's making me
Uncomfortable
I quit my job last week
And now I'm alone
So I'll just keep getting these tattoos
That I hope I won't regret one day
Nobody seems to know my name
So maybe I am nothing
special
Lately everyone's making me
Uncomfortable
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5. |
gonna change
02:44
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I never saw myself needing you
But I swear itās something I had to do
I never saw myself needing you
Iām sorry I ended up this way
But I swear Iām never ever gonna change
Iām sorry I ended up this way
Iām sorry Iām sorry Iām sorry
I never was gonna change
Iām sorry Iām sorry Iām sorry
I swear I will someday
We sat there in silence all night long
And Iām sorry that it just all my fault
And maybe maybe this all will change
and maybe maybe this will all stay the same
Iām sorry Iām sorry Iām sorry
I never was gonna change
Iām sorry Iām sorry Iām sorry
I swear I will someday
I swear I will someday
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6. |
imperfect
02:13
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Cause Iām sick
And Iām tired
And I donāt wanna get outta bed
Iām sick of my heart breaking
For breaking yours
Iām sorry for breaking your heart so many times before
Iām sorry for hurting you for the 100th time
I need to find Courage to be imperfect
I need to be work on me
I need to be imperfect
Iām sick and im tired and I donāt wanna get outta bed
Iām sick and Iām tired and I keep hurting your head
I need to work on me
I need to be imperfect
I need to work on me
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7. |
i swear
02:35
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Iām not very good at playing this guitar
And Iām not very good at singing this song
Well Iām not very good at really anything
But I swear, but I swear, but I swear
Iām getting better
Iāll continue riding my bike through the park
And Iāll continue asking for a restart
Nobody told me it was going to be this hard
But I swear, but I swear, but I swear
Iām getting better
Iāll continue working on my self everyday
And Iāll continue asking if you are okay
Iāll continue working on myself everyday
And Iāll let you know when I am all okay
I swear, I swear, I swear
I swear, I swear, I swear
Iām getting better
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hell water Grand Rapids, Michigan
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I don't know what I'm doing at all so here I am just doing my best.
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